My Problem Was That I Felt Ashamed

I Might Sound Crazy About This But, Years Ago, My Mom Told Me: "we Almost Died When You Were Born. Both Of Us." I Was A Caesarean Baby, And The Doctor Who Delivered Me Later Told Me, "i Opened Your Mother Up, And You Were Right There. It Freaked Me Out Because Everything Was Broken And Out-there." I've Thought About It A Lot - Could This Have Something To Do With The Fact That I'm Only Happy When I'm At Home And Alone? Maybe I Was Just Freaking Out For Two Weeks Before I Was Born, Feeling Really Insecure.

What Will An Angel Say That The Devil Wants To Know?

Rape Is The Most Humiliating Thing That Can Be Done To You; It's The Most Vulnerable That You Can Be. But Once I Realized That, I Became A Stronger Person And Faced All My Fears.

I'd Say That I've Been Reclusive The Last 34 Years. That Was My Big Thing As A Kid, Staying Home From School. I've Trained Myself To Be Psychosomatically Sick A Lot. Anytime I Go Out, It Is Just Something To Deal With, Even Walking To The Grocery Store. If I'm Supposed To Go From One Place To Another Place That Isn't That Comfortable, I Usually Don't Go.

If I Respect Myself And Believe In What I'm Doing, No One Can Touch Me.