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I'm Lost In A Transition. The Old Is Dead, And I Don't Know What The New Is. The Only Way To Find The New Is To Start Different Things And See If There's Something That Can Come Out Of Experimentation. It's Somewhat Unsettling, But It's A Hopeful Thing In A Way. I've Been Here Before, Lots Of Times.

When You're Down, When You've Been Kicked Down In The Street And Then Kicked A Few More Times Until You're Bleeding And Your Teeth Are Out, Then You Only Have Up To Go. You Get Reborn Again, And Expectations Aren't So Great Because They've Taken You Away. It's Beautiful To Be Down There. It's So Beautiful!

I Thought When I Started Meditation That I Was Going To Get Real Calm And Peaceful And It's Going To Be Over. It's Not That Way; It's So Energetic. That's Where All The Energy And Creativity Is.

I'm Not Comfortable With Words. I Love Images ,and I Love Sounds, And I Love Feelings. I Like The Idea Of Intuition. I Think A Lot Of Things In Life Are Understood That Way. But You Internalize These Things; They Don't Really Pop Out. Certain Things Are Built Inside - Little Areas Of Understanding. I Feel That I Live In Darkness And Confusion, And I'm Trying, Like We All Are, To Make Some Sort Of Sense Of It.

I Don't Really Follow Television So Much, But In The Old Days There Was A Certain Way Tv Was, And It Wasn't Really Like Cinema. I Don't Know How Many Ways It Was Different Or The Same, But It Was Not Quite Like Cinema. Now, Cinema Can Happen On Television.