I Had Made Myself The Center Of

I Had Made Myself The Center Of My Own Existence And Had My Back Turned To God.

I Am Rediscovering The Whole Sexual Dimension Of Life At The Age Of 86, Really. And That Also Means Discovering The Feminine. So The Whole Of This Dimension, Which I Had Been Seeking For A Very Long Time, Is Now Sort Of Opening Itself Up To Me.

God Had Brought Me To My Knees And Made Me Acknowledge My Own Nothingness, And Out Of That Knowledge I Had Been Reborn. I Was No Longer The Centre Of My Life And Therefore I Could See God In Everything.

There Is A Beautiful Expression Of This In The Chandogya Upanishad: 'there Is This City Of Brahman, (that Is The Body), And In This City There Is A Shrine, And In That Shrine There Is A Small Lotus, And In That Lotus There Is A Small Space, (akasa). Now What Exists Within That Small Space, That Is To Be Sought, That Is To Be Understood.' This Is The Great Discovery Of The Upanishads, This Inner Shrine, This Guha, Or Cave Of The Heart, Where The Inner Meaning Of Life, Of All Human Existence, Is To Be Found.

You Must Be Ready To Give Up Everything, Not Only Material Attachments But Also Human Attachments - Father, Mother, Wife, Children - Everything That You Have. But The One Thing Which You Have To Abandon Unconditionally Is Your Self.