I Have A Longing For Fiction -

I Try To Write About Small Insignificant Things. I Try To Find Out If It’s Possible To Say Anything About Them. And I Almost Always Do If I Sit Down And Write About Something. There Is Something In That Thing That I Can Write About. It’s Very Much Like A Rehearsal. An Exercise, In A Way.

And It's A Disquieting Thought That Not Even The Past Is Done With, Even That Continues To Change, As If In Reality There Is Only One Time, For Everything, One Time For Every Purpose Under Heaven. One Single Second, One Single Landscape, In Which What Happens Activates And Deactivates What Has Already Happened In Endless Chain Reactions, Like The Processes That Take Place In The Brain, Perhaps, Where Cells Suddenly Bloom And Die Away, All According To The Way The Winds Of Consciousness Are Blowing.

If You Are Disappearing From Yourself, But You're Still Writing, Then There Is A Kind Of Activity Of Thinking Going On, Which In My World Is Similar To What's Going On In Music.

National Identity Is A Motion. It's Something You're Inside, You Don't Get What's Happening, You Can't See It From Above. And That's Where You Have To Write. You Can't See What's Happening Now Or What's Going To Happen, So You Just Dive Into It And Write.

In Modern Novels I Try To Not Let Myself Get Away And To Be Here, And That's Why I Write About My Life And Myself. But Even When I Do That There's An Element Of Disappearing To A Place That's Not Me. It's "the Selflessness Of Writing". It Seldom Happens, But When It Does It's Worth Quite A Lot.